I often meditate on things of God I don’t quite understand. There’s so much to Him. The more I know the more awed I am, and the more I realized I don’t know. You don’t know what you don’t know! I can’t dare speak on things I haven’t learnt of Him yet, but I do want to know more. The reality of the Spirit, the standard of His holiness, and His nature I cannot fully comprehend. The ridiculousity of man trying to understand… God! How can I claim to truly know Him? How can I claim to have perfect theology, from my own understanding, from my own reading, from my own opinion. In the presence of God all my thoughts, my ideals, and my presuppositions all fade away when they encounter God and when they encounter truth.
Knowing God is knowing the reality of His holiness and presence every day, and living my life ever so carefully, living on my knees, if it must be, so that I can live a set-apart life, pleasing to God, and free from defilement. There is just so much out there that defiles. Even in shopping malls, the advertistment pictures, or the clothes people wear are just plain disgusting and defiling. “Unclean! Unclean!”
What was I speaking of? God. When reading the book of Isaiah, I was stuck by the very poignant description of the Holocaust (the Holocaust?). I dare not speak definitively or authoritively on anything about God, besides what the Bible clearly states, and I dare not speculate, but I do know a little bit about holocaust History.
Isaiah 3:24-26
And so it shall be:
Instead of a sweet smell there will be a stench;
Instead of a sash, a rope;
Instead of well-set hair, baldness;
Instead of a rich robe, a girding of sackcloth;
And branding instead of beauty.
Your men shall fall by the sword,
And your mighty in the war.
Her gates shall lament and mourn,
And she being desolate shall sit on the ground.
(See at your own risk - nothing sinful, just very depressing. And these are just the tip of the iceburg where holocaust suffering are concerned. These are Hollywood's mild take from the Anne Frank: Whole Story movie. )
Yet in the midst of hell on earth, in the midst of the unspeakable horrors (horror itself is too light a word), many stood strong. Perhaps you ask me who are my heroes. Especially those of the holocaust, because such times were perilous. I cannot imagine living such a life, in such surroundings. Where would faith be? Where would love be? Where would God be in the midst of suffering.
The answer came clearly and spoke to me through the lives of Dietrich Bonhoeffer, the Ten Boom family, and the suffering and downtrodden in Europe during World war 2.
I am talking incoherently, perhaps rambling about. But these are my thoughts of the day. Now a book I really recommend is The Hiding Place by Corrie Ten Boom. The movie is almost accurate, too. I wholly recommend it above Anne Frank: Whole Movie.
I just picked up this book this morning, written by Ps. Susan Tang of http://www.station-of-life.org/, Ps Jean Lim of http://jesushealsmi.com/, and Ps Wong Chin Meng of http://www.purestream.info/. Again, I was amazed by the depth of Scriptural revelation, and the truth packed into this slim little book. It is so thorough and packed. Worth more than RM 10, I would recommend it to anybody, as it covers more than dress alone, but the importance of living the Christian life the way God intends (and much more than that!)
Dear readers, I have just arrived back from youth camp. When you think about youth camp, do you think of fun games and crazy activities, lots of joking, vibrant and entertaining speakers, emotionally touching climaxes, and an exhilirating time? I don't know. That's not my experience with youth camp :). There's nothing wrong with those things, and I did enjoy a lot of funny moments, jokes, and a jolly time of fellowship.
The verse that kept coming up as the theme verse if the camp was,
"I beseech you therefore bretheren, by the mercies of God,
That you present your bodies, a living sacrifice.
Holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service.
And do not be conformed to this world
But be transformed by the renewing of your mind,
That you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God." (Romans 12:1-2)
It was a verse I had memorized years back, later sung, and now became even more of reality for me over the years, the reality having been intensified more and more and continues to remain real and alive.
¹) When I think back, the most outstanding, dominant, and wonderful part of this camp was the reality of God. I know God's presence was there, because I felt a lot of conviction. I didn't feel condemned, but just convicted of God's holiness by what was preached. And that is how I knew that God was speaking to me. Even in times of fellowship and fun (during break times), there was such a reverence for His presence that filled my heart. The whole land was so sweet and soaked in the presence of God and there was such a grace for fasting and prayer. I don't take such a thing lightly, And I pray God forgive me if I misrepresent Him in the way I write of Him and speak of Him.
2) The theme of the camp was "Transformed to be like Yeshua". It's not just a theme of a camp, or a logo on a t-shirt to me. It's really should be the goal and purpose of our life, to be transformed in Yeshua's image and likeness, to be really in Him and He is us, and to be one with Him. What really struck me was the hearts of the other youths. I feel at times like this that I am not alone, that there are others that really love God even more than I do, that serve Him more than I do, and really whoeheartedly love God's Word a lot more than I do. In worship and prayer, I never saw such youth - they exuberated such LOVE for God, such humility, such longing and desire for God, and such spiritual stature. I feel humbled, especially learning about the sin of youthful pride and arrogance (YHWH preserve me from that, and change my heart), and about being a servant. (Make me a servant, YHWH, not just at youth camp, not just in front of others, but give me a spirit of servanthood.)
3) The Word that was preached was constantly a hard-hitting, convicting, challenging Word. Long hours of sitting at the feet of God's faithful servants and ministers, going through the Word of God thoroughly, from Scripture to Scripture, praying for hours on end, it was not easy. I feel I really have to live by the Spirit and not by the flesh. I suppose you could say it was a "youth camp" so much as a "youth training" experience. Being raised as soldiers in the armies of God, we have to be disciplined. Constant emphasis on HOLINESS and being SET-APART from the World was always there. I know I'm not there yet. We were constantly rebuked, constantly instructed, and constantly convicted. Such a distinction between the Kingdom of God and the Kingdoms of Satan and this world was made, that one's personal compromises, no matter how trivial, are shown for what they really are in God's sight. Such a standard was shown (God's Holiness) that cannot justify spiritual complacency. The love and praise of this world and self was shown for what it really was. Again, HOLINESS. Without holiness one cannot see God. We are to be holy, just as Yeshua was holy. Such a reverance for God was instilled in us, and such a reality of the Judgment and wrath of God, as well as His love. We were constantly shown the plumb line, the ruler, to show us and impress in us the reality of hell, sin, demonic oppression, lies and deception. Yet such a gravity of Spirit, such a whole, perfect shalom lay over us. Repentence is a lost art in many of our lives today. As a child of God, one thorughout one's life must be found on one's knees in complete hopelessness in our self yet having such faith in God.
The importance of Prayer was stressed again and again. The peaceful, refreshing times waiting on YHWH that put an end to every desire and pleasure of self were eternally benefitial. The world's systems, goals, and ways were exposed for what they truly are - the deception of Satan, who is all out to drag us into eternal abyss and suffering, because he hates us, because we were created in the image of God.
As soldiers, one must know who one's enemy is. One must know his goals and his tactics. And out enemy is Satan, for he is all out to steal, kill, and destroy. Only when we are totally transformed into Yeshua and we are found on our knees, seeking fot the Kingdom of God, only when we live such a life of obedience and submission to God and love of delight in His Word, only then have we been completely brought into the liberty and power and dominion to which Yeshua has completed in us. And yet the life, the love, the obedience, is all a gift to us from Yeshua.
We were always reminded of sanctity, that is, the importance of keeping our bodies set-apart and holy, because we are the temple of the Living God.
3) Even the songs we sang really were along these lines, these spiritual boundaries along the narrow way. Tthe kinds of songs we sang we of love towards God, of total laying down of our lives in surrender to Him, of His Kingdom, of His power, of His glory, of His magnificence, and especially of His holiness and our desire to be like Him. And sometimes I opened my eyes to look around when worshipping, to see youths on their faces, on their knees, just worshipping God. It really didn't matter who was looking at them, because it was just between each individual and God. And it really wasn't a song anymore, because to me it became a prayer.
I can say that I learnt a lot and spent a lot of time in God's presence, but time will really tell whether I will keep steadfastly to the Word which God Himself has made a revelation to me and to all of us, whether I will keep myself in the Love of God, whether I will hold fast, and whether I will run that race with such fixing of my eyes upon the goal, whether I will submit to God, and whether I will build my life of the solid rock of God and all His eternal will, purpose, and treasure.
My bottom line is this. Contrary to the usual youthful nature and aptitude, we were taught holiness, maturity, reverence, respect, and fear of God. We were taught to not just think about the sinful goals, pleasures, and purposes of this life (which may not be outright sin), but to look at Yeshua, to love Him, seek Him, and most of all, just be IN HIM:
"We can do nothing else but watch and wait,
enthusiastically,
Totally taken up,
Deaf towards anyone who would confuse us with doubts,
Blind towards anything that comes between us and that future of God.
Only one thing is of importance to us.
We want to see Yeshua
We want to hear Yeshua,
We want to know Yeshua,
We want to receive Yeshua,
We want to serve Yeshua.
Written and Performed by Esther Mui: m-csn.com/esthermui.htm
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The New Covenant, one not unlike the old covenant, made in the days of Moses, but exceeding it greatly. It is superior to the old covenant. The old covenant was, mainly, a foreshadow of this great covenant which was to come.
What is a Covenant? - an eternal promise made by the supreme YHWH, who never breaks His promises, ever.
The Old covenant was the covenant of constant sacrifice and the blood of sheep and goats. The new covenant was sealed in one great atonement of the great lamb, slain before the foundation of the world, the one who alone is worthy. The New Covenant that washes away the sins of the House of Israel once and for all, when the great YHWH Himself forgives their iniquities and remembers their sins no more.
Th Old Covenant had a human high priest, one that was fallible and indeed sinned. Yet in the New Covenant, we have a divine prophet, priest, and king, in the likeness and lineage of David and yet greater than David, who has been counted worth of more glory than Moses.
(Heb 2:7-18 The Scriptures 1998+)
You have made him a little lower than the messengers.1 You have crowned him with esteem and respect, and set him over the works of Your hands. You have put all in subjection under his feet.” For in that He put all in subjection under him, He left none that is not subjected to him. But now we do not yet see all subjected to him. But we do see Him who was made for a little while lower than the messengers, יהושע, because of the suffering of death crowned with esteem and respect, that by the favour of Elohim He should taste death for everyone. For it was fitting for Him, because of whom all are and through whom all are, in bringing many sons to esteem, to make the Princely Leader of their deliverance perfect through sufferings. For both He who sets apart and those who are being set apart are all of One, for which reason He is not ashamed to call them brothers, saying, “I shall announce Your Name to My brothers,1 in the midst of the congregation I shall sing praise to You.” And again, “I shall put My trust in Him.” And again, “See, I and the children whom Elohim gave Me.” Therefore, since the children share in flesh and blood, He Himself similarly shared in the same, so that by means of His death He might destroy him having the power of death, that is, the devil, and deliver those who throughout life were held in slavery by fear of death. For, doubtless, He does not take hold of messengers, but He does take hold of the seed of Aḇraham. So in every way He had to be made like His brothers, in order to become a compassionate and trustworthy High Priest in matters related to Elohim, to make atonement for the sins of the people. For in what He had suffered, Himself being tried, He is able to help those who are tried.
(Heb 2:7-18 The Scriptures 1998+)
(Heb 8:1-13 The Scriptures 1998+)
Now the summary of what we are saying is: We have such a High Priest, who is seated at the right hand of the throne of the Greatness in the heavens, and who serves in the set-apart place and of the true Tent, which יהוה set up, and not man.
For every high priest is appointed to offer both gifts and slaughters. So it was also necessary for this One to have somewhat to offer. For if indeed He were on earth, He would not be a priest, since there are priests who offer the gifts according to the Torah, who serve a copy and shadow of the heavenly, as Mosheh was warned when he was about to make the Tent. For He said, “See that you make all according to the pattern shown you on the mountain.” But now He has obtained a more excellent service, inasmuch as He is also Mediatorof a better covenant, which was constituted on better promises.
For if that first covenant had been faultless, then no place would have been sought for a second. For finding fault with them, He says, “See, the days are coming,” says יהוה, “when I shall conclude with the house of Yisra’ĕl and with the house of Yehuḏah a renewed covenant, not according to the covenant that I made with their fathers in the day when I took them by the hand to lead them out of the land of Mitsrayim, because they did not continue in My covenant, and I disregarded them,” says יהוה. “Because this is the covenant that I shall make with the house of Yisra’ĕl after those days, says יהוה, giving My laws in their mind, and I shall write them on their hearts, and I shall be their Elohim, and they shall be My people. “And they shall by no means teach each one his neighbour, and each one his brother, saying, ‘Know יהוה,’ because they all shall know Me, from the least of them to the greatest of them. “Because I shall forgive their unrighteousness, and their sins and their lawlessnesses I shall no longer remember.”By saying, ‘renewed,’ He has made the first old. Now what becomes old and growing aged is near disappearing.
(Heb 8:1-13 The Scriptures 1998+)
(Heb 8:1-13 HNT) וזה ראש הנאמרים שיש־לנו כהן גדול אשר ישב לימין כסא הגדלה בשמים׃ (2) והוא משרת הקדש והמשכן האמתי אשר־כוננו אדני ולא אדם׃ (3) כי כל־כהן גדול הוא מפקד להקריב מנחות וזבחים ועל־כן צריך שגם זה יהיה לו מה־שיקריב׃ (4) והנה אלו היה בארץ לא היה כהן כי יש־פה הכהנים המקריבים הקרבנות על־פי התורה׃ (5) ומכהנים לדמות וצל הדברים שבשמים כאשר צוה משה בבאו להקים את־המשכן כי־אמר אליו ראה ועשה הכל בתבניתו אשר־אתה מראה בהר׃ (6) ועתה הוא קבל שרות מעלה כפי מעלת הברית שהוא סרסור לה אשר הוקמה על־הבטחות טבות ויתרות׃ (7) כי אלו היתה הראשונה ההיא גמורה לא־יבקש מקום לשניה׃ (8) כי־כה אמר בהוכיח אתם הנה ימים באים נאם־יהוה וכרתי את־בית ישראל ואת־בית יהודה ברית חדשה׃ (9) לא כברית אשר כרתי את־אבותם ביום החזיקי בידם להוציאם מארץ מצרים אשר־המה הפרו את־בריתי ואנכי בחלתי בם נאם־יהוה׃ (10) כי זאת הברית אשר אכרת את־בית ישראל אחרי הימים ההם נאם־יהוה נתתי את־תורתי בקרבם ועל־לבם אכתבנה והייתי להם לאלהים והמה יהיו־לי לעם׃ (11) ולא ילמדו עוד איש את־רעהו ואיש את־אחיו לאמר דעו את־יהוה כי כולם ידעו אותי למקטנם ועד־גדולם׃ (12) כי אסלח לעונם ולחטאתם (ולפשעיהם) לא אזכר־עוד׃ (13) הנה כשאמר ברית חדשה ישן את־הראשונה ומה־שהוא נושן ומזקין קרב קצו׃
(Heb 8:1-13 HNT)
(Heb 10:1-39 The Scriptures 1998+)
For the Torah, having a shadow of the good matters to come, and not the image itself of the matters, was never able to make perfect those who draw near with the same slaughter offerings which they offer continually year by year. Otherwise, would they not have ceased to be offered? Because those who served, once cleansed, would have had no more consciousness of sins. But in those offerings is a reminder of sins year by year. For it is impossible for blood of bulls and goats to take away sins.
Therefore, coming into the world, He says,
“Slaughtering and meal offering You did not desire,
but a body You have prepared for Me.
In burnt offerings and offerings for sin You did not delight. (Ps. 40:6, 7).
Then I said, ‘See, I come – in the roll of the book it has been written concerning Me – to do Your desire, O Elohim.’
Saying above, “Slaughter and meal offering, and burnt offerings, and offerings for sin You did not desire, nor delighted in,” which are offered according to the Torah, then He said, “See, I come to do Your desire, O Elohim.” He takes away the first to establish the second. By that desire we have been set apart through the offering of the body of יהושע Messiah once for all.
And indeed every priest stands day by day doing service, and repeatedly offering the same slaughter offerings which are never able to take away sins. But He, having offered one slaughter offering for sins for all time, sat down at the right hand of Elohim, waiting from that time onward until His enemies are made a footstool for His feet. For by one offering He has perfected for all time those who are being set apart.
And the Set-apart Spirit also witnesses to us, for after having said before,
“This is the covenant that I shall make with them after those days, says יהוה, giving My laws into their hearts, and in their minds I shall write them,” ( Jer. 31:33, ) and, “Their sins and their lawlessnesses I shall remember no more.” Now where there is forgiveness of these, there is no longer a slaughter offering for sin.
So, brothers, having boldness to enter into the Set-apart Place by the blood of יהושע, by a new and living way which He instituted for us, through the veil, that is, His flesh, and having a High Priest over the House of Elohim, let us draw near with a true heart in completeness of belief, having our hearts sprinkled from a wicked conscience and our bodies washed with clean water. Let us hold fast the confession of our expectation without yielding, for He who promised is trustworthy. And let us be concerned for one another in order to stir up love and good works,1 Footnote: 1Mt. 16:27. not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging, and so much more as you see the Day coming near.
For if we sin purposely after we have received the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a slaughter offering for sins,1 Footnote: 1See also 6:6, Heb. 9:7, Num. 15:15-28. but some fearsome anticipation of judgment, and a fierce fire which is about to consume the opponents. Anyone who has disregarded the Torah of Mosheh dies without compassion on the witness of two or three witnesses. How much worse punishment do you think shall he deserve who has trampled the Son of Elohim underfoot, counted the blood of the covenant by which he was set apart as common, and insulted the Spirit of favour? For we know Him who has said, “Vengeance is Mine, I shall repay, says יהוה.” And again, “יהוה shall judge His people.” It is fearsome to fall into the hands of the living Elohim.
But remember the former days, when, after you were enlightened, you endured a great struggle with sufferings. On the one hand you were exposed to reproaches and pressures, and on the other hand you became sharers with those who were so treated, for you sympathised with me in my chains, and you accepted with joy the seizure of your possessions, knowing that you have a better and a lasting possession for yourselves in the heavens. Do not, then, lose your boldness, which has great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the desire of Elohim, you receive the promise:
“For yet a little while – He who is coming shall come and shall not delay.”
“But the righteous shall live by belief, but if anyone draws back, my being has no pleasure in him.”
But we are not of those who draw back to destruction, but of belief to the preservation of life.
(Heb 10:1-39 The Scriptures 1998+)
(Heb 10:1-39 HNT) כי התורה בהיות בה צל הטבות העתידות ולא מראה עצם הדברים אין ביכלתה לעולם להשלים את־הקרבים בקרבנות ההם אשר יקריבו תמיד מדי שנה בשנה׃ (2) כי אם־כן הלא חדלו להביאם כי לא־היתה עוד ידיעת חטאים במקריבים בהטהרם פעם אחת׃ (3) אבל יש־שם הזכרת החטאים שנה בשנה׃ (4) כי דם־הפרים והשעירים לא יוכל להסיר חטאים׃ (5) ועל־כן אמר בבואו לעולם זבח ומנחה לא חפצת גויה כוננת לי׃ (6) עולה וחטאה לא שאלת׃ (7) אז אמרתי הנה־באתי במגלת־ספר כתוב עלי לעשות רצונך אלהי׃ (8) אחרי אמרו למעלה זבח ומנחה עולה וחטאה לא חפצת ולא שאלת אשר יקריבו אתם על־פי התורה׃ (9) אז אמר הנה־באתי לעשות רצונך אלהי מעביר בזה את־הראשון למען הקים את־השני׃ (10) וברצון הזה מקדשים אנחנו על־ידי הקרבת קרבן גופו של־ישוע המשיח בפעם אחת׃ (11) וכל־כהן עמד יום יום לשרת ומוסיף פעמים רבות להקריב הקרבנות ההמה אשר לא־יוכלו לעולם להעביר חטאים׃ (12) והוא אחרי הקריבו זבח אחד על־החטאים ישב לימין האלהים לנצח׃ (13) ומאז יחכה עד כי־יושתו איביו הדם לרגליו׃ (14) כי הוא בקרבן אחד השלים לנצח את־המקדשים׃ (15) ואף־רוח הקדש מעיד לנו על־זאת כי אחרי אמרו׃ (16) זאת הברית אשר אכרת אתם אחרי הימים ההם אמר יהוה נתתי את־תורתי בקרבם ועל־לבם אכתבנה׃ (17) ולעונם ולחטאתם לא אזכר־עוד׃ (18) והנה במקום שיש סליחת החטאים אין עוד קרבן עליהם׃ (19) ועתה אחי בהיות לנו בטחון דרך הקדש בדם ישוע׃ (20) דרך חדש וחי אשר חדש לנו בפרכת היא בשרו׃ (21) ובהיות לנו כהן גדול על־בית אלהים׃ (22) נקרבה־נא בלבב שלם ובאמונה תמימה מטהרים בהזית לבבנו מרוח רעה ורחוצי הבשר במים טהורים׃ (23) נחזיקה בהודאת התקוה בל־נמוט כי־נאמן המבטיח׃ (24) ונתבוננה איש על־אחיו לעורר אתנו לאהבה ולמעשים טובים׃ (25) ואל־נעזב את־כנסיתנו כדרך קצת אנשים כי אם־נזהיר איש את־רעהו וביותר בראתכם כי־קרב היום׃ (26) כי אם־נחטא בזדון אחרי אשר היתה לנו ידיעת האמת לא־ישאר עוד זבח על־החטאים׃ (27) כי אם־בעותי הדין העתיד ואש קנאה אשר תאכל את־הצררים׃ (28) הן איש כי־יפר תורת משה מות ימות בלי חמלה על־פי שנים עדים או־שלשה׃ (29) ומה־דעתכם כמה יגדל הענש הנכון למי שרמס ברגלו את־בן־האלהים ועשה את־דם הברית אשר־הוא מקדש בו כחל ומחרף את־רוח החסד׃ (30) כי־ידענו מי הוא האמר לי נקם ושלם ועוד כי־ידין יהוה עמו׃ (31) מה־נורא לנפל ביד אלהים חיים׃ (32) אבל זכרו־נא את־הימים הראשונים כי אז אחרי ארו עיניכם נשאתם צבא ענוים רבים׃ (33) פעם בהיותכם לראוה בחרפה ותוגה פעם בהשתתף עם הבאים בצרות כמוכם׃ (34) כי הצטערתם על־האסירים וגזלת רכושכם סבלתם בשמחה מדעתכם בנפשכם שיש־לכם בשמים קנין טוב ממנו וקים לעד׃ (35) לכן אל־תשליכו את־בטחונכם כי יש־לו שכר רב׃ (36) כי צריכים אתם לסבלנות למען תעשו רצון אלהים ונשאתם את־ההבטחה׃ (37) כי עוד מעט־רגע והבא יבא לא יאחר׃ (38) הצדיק באמונתו יחיה ואם־יסג אחור לא־רצתה נפשי בו׃ (Heb 10:1-39 HNT) (39) אבל אין אנחנו מן־הנסגים אחור לאבד כי אם־מן־המאמינים להציל נפשנו׃
(Psalm 95:6-11)
Come, let us bow down and bend low,
Let us kneel before יהוה our Maker.
For He is our Elohim,
And we are the people of His pasture,
And the sheep of His hand.
Today, if you would hear His voice:
“Do not harden your hearts as in Meriḇah,
And as in the day of Massah in the wilderness,
“When your fathers tried Me,
Have proved Me,
though they saw My work.
“For forty years I was grieved with that generation,
And said, ‘They are a people who go astray in their hearts,
And they do not know My ways.’
“As I swore in My wrath,
‘If they enter into My rest...’ ”
כי הוא אלהינו ואנחנו עם מרעיתו וצאן ידו היום אם־בקלו תשׁמעו׃
אל־תקשׁו לבבכם כמריבה כיום מסה במדבר׃
אשׁר נסוני אבותיכם בחנוני גם־ראו פעלי׃
ארבעים שׁנה אקוט בדור ואמר עם תעי לבב הם והם לא־ידעו דרכי׃
אשׁר־נשׁבעתי באפי אם־יבאון אל־מנוחתי׃
(Psalm 95:6-11)
I use the internet a lot. To me it's a huge, wonderful library full of information that I just love browsing. Wiki is one of my favorite spots, and I also love reading blogs of other conservative homeschoolers. I do most of my "interactive learning" and research on the internet. Curiosity is a great student... and yes, I do do legitimate research.
Here are some of my favorite research topics over the years:
At 13: I was crazy about American Politics and History (Civil war, civil rights, etc), US Electal system, etc.Keywords: Hoopskirts, Fashion History, Historical Sewing (Still am interested in that), 2nd Continental Congress, Martin Luther King, Abraham Lincoln, Gettysburg Address, slavery, Black Gospel music, Mike Huckabee, Electoral College, John Adams, etc.
Favorite movies: 10Commandments, Election debates, Little Women, 1776 esp
At 14: I was really excited and into String instruments and music (Cello, violin, and piano)'
At 15: Baking, Cooking, The cake, bread, and pastry bibles
Keywords: Rose Levy Beranbaum, Baking, Cupcakes, Cake Decoration, Chocolate Roses,
At 16: Jewish Roots and Church History, Mostly Judaic, Also Christian, and a little of Islamic studies
Keywords; Holocaust, Corrie Ten Boom, Auswhitch, Anne Frank, Elli Friedmann, Mezuzah, Soviet Russia's leaders, Semitic Languages, semitic greetings, guttural soundings, Hebrew language, Shema, Orthodox Judaism, Middle East Conflict, New Jerusalem, Masoretic Vowel pointings, Messianic Hope, "Out hands are stained with blood" - Church, Ishmaelite history and beliefs, Semitic peoples, Challah, Matzo, Biblical Prophecies about Olam Haba, Zechariah 12, Torah studies, Benefits of Torah Observance, Perpetual Ordinances, Shabbat, Kosher lifestyle, Zionism, Islamic Extremism, Comparison of Kosher and Halal, Messianics, Lord's Prayer, Aramaic, Yeshua, Most important - YHWH
So you see, at any given time, I can talk intelligently on any of those subjects. I love to research and once I get on the internet I can spend an hour at it and not even realise. I also use youtube to watch Biblical movies, like Abraham, Jacob, Moses, etc.
But the problem is, I spend a lot of time on the internet, when I could be doing a lot of other things, and most of the time, when I have to do other things. I can spend 2-3 hours a day reading off the internet. Its more interesting than studying the required curriculum. I feel my conscience saying its like binging. I have lots of work, practice, and chores to do. I also get myself into lots of little projects here and there that I need to complete. I write a lot, play a lot, and I use the internet... a lot. Can I live without the internet? Honestly, I can. I would be relieved not to have it to tempt me sometimes. I have lots of other ways of getting research. I could just as easily engross myself into a book in the same way. I would not be bored, lonely, or experience withdrawal, though, of course, If I were never to use the internet again there would be a lot of things I would have to do: download lots of stuff, close email and other accounts, etc.
Another problem is that every day I kinda get excited to get on the internet, (my delight should be in the Torah instead) after Bible reading, then I just spend a lot of time doing legitamate browsing. No time-wasting games, etc for me. You won't believe the most interesting things I've found, like a humorous and ironic, but totally historically accurate, account of Confederate soldiers and their lifestyle.I didn't... ahem... need it exactly for my homework... but I was learning about the Civil War, and it really got me interested in what I was learning, and I could eventually use it for some project or the other.. well...
It's not like what I'm doing is wrong. I believe it's actually good. But too much of a good thing is not moderate. And not a discipline to my flesh. This is not an area of fighting the flesh as much as it is fighting the soul, especially the mind. I'm feeding myself anythign bad, I'm just feeding myself too much. And besides, even good things in the light of God's holiness is not that good.
So what do I do?
1) Discipline my time. Live an organized, diligent, life. Ideas: Surrender internet time to God. Get all my work done first. I think that instead of just going straight to research whatever academic topic pops into my mind (for example, learning about the nose I go and spend a 1/2 hour learning how to breathe through my nose instead of my mouth, which is healthier) I should write them all down on a piece of paper, then go through the list before the set-apart (sounds almost religious) internet time and cross off anything that does not glorify God, that is just not worth the time, etc.
2) Fast. I think fasting from the internet is VERY good for me, but I can't on a regular school day, because I need it for my homework and musical studies. I was thinking perhaps fasting for a certain period every day, like until 5pm if all my work's done, and also no internet time during general fasting and prayer days and seasons.
It's not a matter of whether the internet is good or bad, or what I am doing is right or wrong - it's about discipline of the self, and living a surrendered life to YHWH, through YHWH, and for the glory of YHWH.
If someone, not a believer, asked me what was Christian life all about, I would have many, many things to say. By the grace of God, I probably could talk from morning until night, and include reading half or all of the Bible. There are so many things to say, so many aspects of faith -covenant, Kingdom of God, righteousness, holiness, martrydom, truth, prayer, witnessing, redemption, meditating on the Word, being a disciple, salvation, justification, sanctification, living by the Spirit, Fruit of the Spirit, etc. etc. etc.
Of course God's wisdom is so great, unsearchable, and past finding out. As I write now, I feel so overwhelmed with the little God has shown me. I find it hard to put it into words, that is, the essense of my faith. It seems that there is so much to it. I just feel flooded, if there is such a feeling, I feel so incapable, so handicapped, so inadequate, to put faith into Words.
The Old Testament alone is difficult to summarize. I don't think I can ever encapsulate the entirely of the Word of God, and the Spirit it carries, and the life it breathes, into a little "pet saying" or "theme" or "life verse". It ever there had to be a summarization of faith, it would have to be Scripture as a whole. I cannot have the Tanakh without the B'rit Chadashah. I cannot have the Torah without the Ketivim or the Nevi'im. I cannot just take the 613 commandments of the Torah and 49 commandments of Christ. I cannot have just the writings of Sha'ul, or just the gospel of Mattiyahu, or rely solely upon the book of Revelations. I realize now, it is impossible, for me to ever find a "catchphrase" or a "motto" from some lone verse somewhere in Scripture and use it to kick off a blog, run a ministry, or change lives. If I had to choose - I couldn't choose! Yet I can't throw the entire Scripture at people; I haven't even begun to know it myself.
1 John 2:24Therefore let that abide in you which you heard from the beginning. If what you heard from the beginning abides in you, you also will abide in the Son and in the Father.25And this is the promise that He has promised us—eternal life. 26These things I have written to you concerning those whotry todeceive you.27But the anointing which you have received from Him abides in you, and you do not need that anyone teach you; but as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things, and is true, and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you will[e]abide in Him.
There is no need for any other book in the world save the Word of God. Sola Scriptura, as Martin Luther said. I realize that I can easily do away with every other book, even good commentaries, or those of real men and women of God with real revelational truth. Why? Because when I read those books, I learn so much. It helps me. It teaches me. But the very essense of it all is that they learnt it all from God, and never from themselves, and they received the revelation and truth from God through the word of God. Did you ever realize that Wesley read the same Bible your read every day? If they received revelation from God, the you can also. He is the same, yesterday, today, and forever. There is only ONE mediator, between God and man, and that is the Messiah Yeshua. He was, is, and ever will be both God, and Man. So I don't need "the Bible + t The Writings of Watchman Nee", or "the Bible + Systematic Theology", those men of God of the past would definately not allow you to put their writings in the same place of God - its Scripture alone. Sola Scriptura. Scripture is all I need, to know God, to learn from God, to have a relationship with God, and a revelation of Him, etc. Those who are in harmony and accordance with the Spirit and Word of Scripture, in the end, all seem to speak the same things in a different ways, and carry the same Spirit.
The same Lord over all is rich upon all who call upon Him. Romans 10:12
The Basis of Reading the Bible is very simple. Just read the Bible and say, "What is GOD saying here". Don't read the Word of God through the spectacles of another mere man. You ought to read the words of man, from the basis of the Word of God, which operates on a higher, separate level. And read the Word of God as a whole, in context, for even atheists can justify their faith (or lack of it), by taking Scripture out of context. In that way, a lot of fightings over pet doctrines, and divisions in the church can be easily done away with. The problem is, I, we, and all men, tend to have preconceived ideas of God and preconceived doctrines, which may not be totally wrong, but is not eternal infallible, truth, and we tend to read scripture through "colored spectacles".
God never contradicts Himself. Then why does the Bible seem to always contradict? Are we justified solely by faith (Romans) or by works also (James)? Ask God yourself. If you take, from a basis of pure faith, that God is, and God is truth, then you realise that seeming contradictions are merely coexisting realities or complementing truths.
The TRUTH is, true faith always shows up as works, because faith is inward, in our hearts, and works are there as proofs or as signs. A truly clean person inside will have a clean house, but a person with a seemingly clean house may not really be a clean person. You can't judge truth from the outward; God judges the heart (1 Samuel). However, if you really have faith, works will be there, like Abraham, who had faith, and who obeyed. What is inside must come out, but what is put on outside cannot be an accurate judge of what is inside.
For example: Yeshua reigns, and we reign with Him (Col 1), then what do we mean when we say he is coming again to reign? Easy: the overiding reality is that if the Spirit, where His victory is already accomplished and the actual fact is Yeshua has gained the Victory. But does He reign in your lives? Are you totally surrendered and ruled by Him? Yeshua is gaining the victory. And what about the end times? Yeshua will indeed gain the victory.
"What is this nonsense?" you ask. Read Scripture. Yeshua was, is, and is to come.
This is what you can call "Threefold Reality"
Yeshua was the Victory since the beginning of time. (In the Spirit)
Yeshua is gaining the Victory, daily. (In the Soul)
Yeshua will indeed gain the Victory. (In the Body)
And of course, the overiding, superceding reality is that of the Spirit, that Yeshua is the Victory.
(So who is right - the Armenianists or the Calvinists? None are totally true. God alone is total TRUTH. No man alone is truth. Yeshua is THE truth, He was both totally God and totally man.)
God has to use so many illustrations in the Word, because He needs to explain to us dumb humans some divine truth, which otherwise would be foreign to us, and above and beyond us. He stoops down to speak to us in terms we can understand.
Do you realize the God of John G Lake, who worked miracles is the same God? And the same God I worship, by the mercy of God the same God of Sha'ul, and the same God as Peter, James and John? It's the same God of Moses, who parted the Red Sea. It's the same God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. It's the same God who said, "Let there be light". It has always been only Him and Him alone. If it's the God of Scripture, it's the same God, don't be deceived by false "christs" who are really antichrist, and false "gods", who are really nothing.
Even more than Sola Scriptura, it's Dios de la escritura solamente. The God of Scripture Alone. Who is He? I cannot begin to describe. His character is flawless, perfect, pure, and just totally undescribable. His acts, His deeds, His Words, His truth, His power, His glory, are all inescapable, crucial, undescribably, essential, etc. parts of Him.
These Words: "Discipleship" is anadequate. "Holiness" is inadequate. "Commandments" are indaquate. "Love" is anadequate. "Covenant" is anadequate. All these words are equally as important. God is love, yes, and His love is past finding out; that is mind-boggling enough, but He is infinitely MORE than love! Love, is just a part of Him, a side of Him. What word could I use to summarize the entirety of the revelation of God to man. The very profoundness of it all! That YHWH Himself should speak to mere man! And I haven't even begun to see the whole picture myself and doubtless, I probably never can with my own little mind. God have mercy on me.
The very basic, essense, of faith which seems so simple and yet is infinitely profound is this: YHWH.
YHWH - always - the God who always was, always is, and always is to come. The great I AM ALWAYS GOD, I AM ALWAYS ONE. The I AM WHO I AM.
The sole purpose, and basis of faith is: YHWH: who He is, what He said, what He said He is, what He said He will do, has done, and is doing, and how He, the great God of the heavens and the earth, who humbles Himself to behold the things in heaven and on earth, sent His only begotten son, whom He loves, who is the Word of God who is with God, and who IS God, to tabernacle among us, and dwell in us, and reveal His excellant glory, that whoever believes in Him, and goes on believing in Him shall never perish, but shall go one having eternal life, that life which is of the Father, through the Son, and in the Spirit... and so MUCH MORE!
It was at this point in life, after reading the entire Bible through in a month, of which fact I don't look back with any pride, my I began to memorize scripture, and attempted to memorize the entire book of Colossians. It is shameful to tell you the actual reason why I did so. We Chinese have an attitude and way of life called the "Kiasu Spirit" - literally "the fear of losing". "Kiasu" means an attitude, a way of life bent on not losing, literally "I will fight, I will kill, I will give all my money, I will work until I drop dead, I will trample on everything and anything," soasmuch as to attain my goal, because it is important to me. I was very "kiasu" to outdo every one in Sunday school at Bible Quizzes, "Kiasu" to read the entire BIble through in a month, and now "Kiasu" to outdo every one at memorizing Scripture. Of course all "Kiasu" is of the flesh and is carnal, and the very word breathes a spirit of pride and haughtiness, that "I can do better than anyone else". What a motivation.
I threw myself wholeheartedly into memorizing Colossians. I wrote it out, twice. I read it many times through. I read it every day until the pages started falling out.
I would like to say that I never really had a "wonderful" "lifechanging" particular experience with God that I could date. But I can tell you for a fact, "God is the rewarder of those who diligently seek Him" (Hebrews 11)
At this point, I would like to quote a "short" testimony I wrote awhile back, for perhaps you may find it helpful and it fills it some gaps in my story.
Why Couldn’t I Understand the Bible?
A lot of people, I’m sure, were like me at one point or another, and perhaps still am. The Bible once seemed a complete mystery to me. It didn’t make any sense. It didn’t seem to apply to my life, or change me, or anything. I knew the facts, I knew all the “stories”, I could answer all the questions that the Sunday-school teacher asked. I knew the Parables, I knew the Gospel, and I knew who created the heaven and earth, so what?
Even after reading through the Bible in three months NOTHING seemed to penetrate. I felt like I was just scratching the surface over and over again, like someone searching for gold but only uncovering soil and soil.
Now I believed God in His word, and I believe that He was God, and He was Creator, and He saved me from sin, but I only knew that God did this and God did that, I didn’t know God as the God who IS, who WAS, and WHO IS TO COME. I didn’t know GOD, and who HE was. I only knew what He did.
It usually starts like that.
Hebrews 11 1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.2 For by it the elders obtained a good testimony.
3 By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.
Our journey must begin on the basis of faith, even if it just believing that God Almighty is the creator of heaven and earth, etc. We must have FAITH to begin with. Faith comes by hearing, and hearing the word of God (Romans 10:17)
But when our journey progresses, works MUST come after us. Faith saves us, but is inside. Works are the things on the outside that show evidence of what is inside. Sometimes people may have only the outside and lack the inside. Then those works are dead. We must have a living faith in the living God for our works to be living.
James 2
14 What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does I tprofit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.
18 But someone will say, “You have faith, and I have works.” Show me your faith without your[d] works, and I will show you my faith by my[e] works. 19 You believe that there is one God. You do well. Even the demons believe—and tremble! 20 But do you want to know, O foolish man, that faith without works is dead?[f] 21 Was not Abraham our father justified by works when he offered Isaac his son on the altar?22 Do you see that faith was working together with his works, and by works faith was made perfect? 23 And the Scripture was fulfilled which says, “Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness.”[g]And he was called the friend of God. 24 You see then that a man is justified by works, and not by faith only.
25 Likewise, was not Rahab the harlot also justified by works when she received the messengers and sent them out another way?
Notice James repeats again and again that faith without works is dead? So works without faith, I believe is dead also. My father quoted from somebody once, that faith and works are like two oars, without one or the other we simple go round and round in circles in our walk with God. Belief/Faith is not enough! Even the demons believe in God – but they are trembling!
Hebrews 11:8 By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to the place which he would receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. 9 By faith he dwelt in the land of promise as in a foreign country, dwelling in tents with Isaac and Jacob, the heirs with him of the same promise; 10 for he waited for the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker is God.
11 By faith Sarah herself also received strength to conceive seed, and she bore a child[b] when she was past the age, because she judged Him faithful who had promised. 12 Therefore from one man, and him as good as dead, were born as many as the stars of the sky in multitude—innumerable as the sand which is by the seashore.
By faith Abraham obeyed (Works). He obeyed and went out. If he simply said he had the faith but didn’t go out to the place God called him that is not faith at all. So also Sarah.
Hebrews 11 verse 6 But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
By FAITH Abraham OBEYED, hand in hand. Without faith we cannot please God, no matter what we do. We MUST have faith. Faith is what saves us. Works are what show that we are saved. Here we come to the Key of my sharing – God is the rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
I had faith in God, I didn’t know Him personally yet, but I believed Him to be the rewarder of those who diligently sought Him. And so I continued to try and read His word, which seemed dry and boring to me. I struggled to memorize it, to meditate on it, and for months I seemed like nothing was happening. I had the faith, I obeyed Him by trying to read His Word, though it seemed fruitless, and then over time God rewarded me.
God WILL reward you, no matter how hard it is, no matter how tiresome it seems, no matter how boring you think the Bible is, no matter how you struggle and struggle and struggle, because GOD is faithful, you must be faithful too. You be faithful, you diligently seek Him –He will reward you. It doesn’t happen overnight. It doesn’t happen suddenly, or the first time we pick up the Bible and decide to read it. Infact, the first time you try to read it you probably wouldn’t “get anything down your system”.
Do you know that God’s Word is a living Word, and it is God speaking to you? Do you want to hear what God is saying and not what the world is saying? Of course! But of course it is very difficult. When all your life you listen to the dead words of a dying world that is all that you are accustomed to then of course you will not be able to take the living Words of a living God so easily. You have been trained, your sense have been trained, your mind has been filled with the wisdom of this world.
God revealed Himself to me slowly, it came not all at once. Through memorizing His Word, I came to understand more and more. I copied the Book of Colossians in the beginning because I found reading tiresome and sleepy. Copying helped me stay awake, and to concentrate instead of skimming over words. My handwriting was terrible at first, and as my writing progressed, so did my spirit. I ended up memorizing it, and these words here.
When God gives you understanding and revelation of His Word, it doesn’t come over night. He doesn’t give it to you all at once, otherwise I probably would have become a proud know-it-all, like before. The understanding of God’s Word comes over time, and even experienced Christians still receive more and more revelation as they continue to seek God.
Slowly, I actually began to enjoy God’s Word, and learn more and more every day. Ps Susan always says that God’s Word is a requiring Word, and God never wastes His words. God became to require from me things which I never dreamed off before. He led to me learn obedience, and diligence, and showed me what a wretched sinner I had been and still in a way was. He showed me the narrow way, a way so narrow you can’t even lean one way or the other without falling. The ways is so straight and narrow.
Matthew 7
7 “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 9 Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? 11 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! 12 Therefore, whatever you want men to do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.
See here is the promise. Ask. I heard in a CD by David Pawson, that the verb is in present continous tense, in the originally Greek. The last thing this verse is talking about is monetary and physically gifts from God, nay! Keep asking, and it will be given to you; Keep seeking and you will find; Keep knocking, and it will be opened to you. Even a simple passage like this a great treasure to me. What do you think Jesus is talking about – doesn’t it speak something to your spirit? Yes, my heavenly Father gives good things to me, blessed wonderful things! The chapter goes on to say:
“Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14 Because[a] narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.
So narrow, so difficult, and that’s where the grace of God comes in. I heard this illustration from Aunty Dorothy, and read it in Wiersbe’s Bible Commentary too. The narrow road’s entrance holds a banner which says, “Whomsoever will”, and once you step in, and turn around, behind is written “Chosen”. Indeed we are all called to the Way, which is Christ, those who enter are chosen, but we MUST remain faithful, for God IS the rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
What a joy the word of God is – I do not enjoy it in a way that is fleshly, or carnal, for in the third chapter of James it says,
13 Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show by good conduct tha his works are done in the meekness of wisdom. 14 But if you have bitter envy and self-seeking in your hearts, do not boast and lie against the truth. 15 This wisdom does not descend from above, but is earthly, sensual, demonic. 16 For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy. 18 Now the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.
The word of God will become like a sword that will pierce you, a mirror that shows you how dirty you are (Hebrews 4, James 1), YET IT IS LIFE! IT IS TRUTH! Amen.
I will continue this article in a series of articles I write for my blog. If you truly struggle but seek to love God’s Word, please read the Psalm 119 and Joshua 1:8
Joshua 1:8 (New King James Version)
8 This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.
(Gal 6:14 The Scriptures 1998+) And for me, let it not be that I should boast except in the stake of our Master YHWSHA Messiah, through whom the world has been impaled to me, and I to the world.
A Testimony to the Mercy of God as Manifest in My Life
YHWH, let my life be a living testament to cross of our Lord Yeshua the Messiah, and may it never cease to me a life lived in the light of Your glory and in the power of Your ressurection. Amen.
Discovering God is a wonderful experience, and one that will take you through your whole life. A relationship with Him is ever so precious, because with the dawning of every new day, He shows Himself to us, in His lovingkindness, faithfulness, and abundant mercy.
Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the LORD, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon. For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. (Isa 55:7-11)
Every morning I awake, early or late, I have learnt and am teaching myself to begin the day praising God. This is not easy, some days I feel like a Christian, and some days I don't. Many days I oversleep and wake up groggy and grouchy. However, one thing I have learnt is to the Praise the Name of the LORD, every day.
One of the most wonderful gifts God has given me is the continued revelation of Himself to me. There are so many different awesome aspects and wonderful characters of God I have not yet discovered, but one thing I have learnt from Him, and that is His name.
A wise Christian once said, "You don't know what you don't know".* I may think I know a lot, but actually I don't know what I'm missing out - I have no idea of the things I do not know. I may think I know God, and that I know He is love - but that knowledge is only that of the mind - I have not yet experiencially known His love, His love has not become a living reality to me.
For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, Of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man; That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love, May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height; And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God. (Eph 3:14-19)
I was born into a faithful Christian family. My parents and grandparents and great great grandparents served God. My parents were active in church, worship-leading, praying, etc. I grew up reading God's Word with my parents every day. I was sure who I believed in - I was sure God was real, that He was love, and that He sent His only begotten son into the world. I knew all about the Bible, I learnt all about the Bible - I knew more than most Christian children about the Kings, about Abraham, and the Parables and Miracles, yes I knew a lot of facts. Yet God was not an intruding reality in my life. I prayed, yes, with others and at mealtimes, but I did not have a consistent prayer relationship with God. I knew who God was, yet I did not know who God was. I read the Bible, but I was more interested in stories, not in teachings. When I read the Epistles, for example, I clearly remember it as an exercise of reading, just reading words. None of it became a living word in my life, yet.
You see, I knew God in my mind, and I thought I knew a lot. God proved me wrong. There was still so much I had to learn.
The first revelation God gave me was that of sin. Sin, you may know, is pleasurable. Sin is fun. Sin is enjoyable to me, to my flesh. Is it not enjoyable to triumph myself over others, to think how wonderful and clever I was, that I could quote more verses and remember all the ten commandments. Sin was exciting. Sin was the sneaky enjoyment I got when I could fool my parents into thinking I was eating vitamins but stuck them all behind my clothes closet one by one. Of course I had sin. Of course I lied, took things that were not mine, cheated, secretly went on the internet to play games, rebelled against my parents etc. It did occur to me that I was any less sinful than anyone else. I felt sin had a grasp in my life. I knew then that I was not saved, yet.
This revelation came over a period of time. During that time I was reading the Bible through and started attending a house church my parents. The preaching was very Biblical. My mom forced me to stop doing homework for a month and just read the Bible, every day. I remember being very adverse to anything of God. I remember being very bored with reading the word and complaining my time was wasted; it didn't make any sense to me; I already knew all the stories = what for?
This passage became alive for me, and I was very proud of the fact no one else could understand Romans 7.
(Rom 7:7) What shall we say then? Is the Torah sin? God forbid. Nay, I had not known sin, but by the Torah: for I had not known lust, except the Torah had said, Thou shalt not covet.
Even though God's Word was not real to me, I came under conviction of sin. The Torah had shown me how sinful I was, inside. I sinned because I was a sinner.
(Rom 7:8) But sin, taking occasion by the commandment, wrought in me all manner of concupiscence. For without the law sin was dead.
But this knowledge, of God, of holiness, did not stop me from sinning. In fact, I because worse, and more desperate.
(Rom 7:9) For I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died.
Without knowing the word of God, I was "alive" in sin, just blissfully and innocently doing what was natural to me. But when I understoof the commandments of God, I realized that what manner of death was in me. I realized I was a sinner.
(Rom 7:10) And the commandment, which was ordained to life, I found to be unto death.
The Word of God, which was supposed to bring life to me, only made me realized what kind of pit of sin I was wallowing in.
(Rom 7:11) For sin, taking occasion by the commandment, deceived me, and by it slew me. (Rom 7:12) Wherefore the torah is holy, and the commandment holy, and just, and good.
The Torah of God brings life (Ps 19), but to those in death it only serves to show them their own sinful, evil, state.
(Rom 7:13) Was then that which is good made death unto me? God forbid. But sin, that it might appear sin, working death in me by that which is good; that sin by the commandment might become exceeding sinful.
(Rom 7:14) For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin.
This verse was very real to me. I remember in February of 2008 I was just crying out to God by myself, to deliver me from certain sins. I turned from the sin and never went backt to that again, but the guilt was still there. I knew God forgives and forgets, but I still was very self-condemned. I felt I was not saved. I toyed with the idea that perhaps I had commited some unforgivable sin, but it didn't strike me as true. I was still under a lot of condemnation.
I would like to say that one of the worst lies of the devil to convince people that they have commited the unforgivable sin and can never be forgiven. In effect, the evil one is trying to downplay the word of Christ on the cross and convince you that it is uneffective. That is not true. The word says clearly: (1Jn 1:9) If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
I remember clearly an incident where I was reading this, crying and wondering what to do. You probably know what it feels like to have such a weight on your heart. As I look back, I realize all this is gone. My heart is light and full of joy. I know know that through the blood of the Messiah all sin has been washed away. Thank God!
(Rom 7:15) For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I.
It described my feelings exactly. I knew what what right to do; but I could not do it.
(Rom 7:16) If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good.
I know in my heart God's Word was true and good.
(Rom 7:17) Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.
Sin was controlling my life.
(Rom 7:18) For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.
Exactly my sentiments. I felt such a joining and "kinship" with this passage, for it reflected my heart.
(Rom 7:19) For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.
*sigh* *desperation*
(Rom 7:20) Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.
(Rom 7:21) I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.
(Rom 7:22) For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:
(Rom 7:23) But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.
(Rom 7:24) O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?
I felt like this was screaming in me.
I read on. I read the following verse again and again. Now, I felt, Paul had lost touch. Of course I knew it was true, but reading this verse again and again, I did not feel very grateful to God, nor did I feel delivered.
(Rom 7:25a) I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
(Rom 7:25b)So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.
The book of Proverbs was written to instruct the future King of Israel in the ways of God's wisdom and understanding. Written from the viewpoint of a wise father and also a mother, it is useful for God's children of all times, for them to understand the unsearchable and wonderful ways of God, to know His wisdom which passes understanding, to understand His concepts and truths, and to have His knowledge. Seeing life from the perspective of the creator is infinitely above and beyond seeing life from the viewpoint of the finite, and small, little, creature.
The Parable of the Wise and Foolish Virgins (NKJV)
1 “Then the kingdom of heaven shall be likened to ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom. 2 Now five of them were wise, and five were foolish. 3 Those who were foolish took their lamps and took no oil with them, 4 but the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps. 5 But while the bridegroom was delayed, they all slumbered and slept. 6 “And at midnight a cry was heard: ‘Behold, the bridegroom is coming;[a] go out to meet him!’ 7 Then all those virgins arose and trimmed their lamps. 8 And the foolish said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.’ 9 But the wise answered, saying, ‘No, lest there should not be enough for us and you; but go rather to those who sell, and buy for yourselves.’ 10 And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came, and those who were ready went in with him to the wedding; and the door was shut. 11 “Afterward the other virgins came also, saying, ‘Lord, Lord, open to us!’ 12 But he answered and said, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, I do not know you.’ 13 “Watch therefore, for you know neither the day nor the hour[b] in which the Son of Man is coming.
10 virgins - all good girls... all were virgins... 5 were wise, 5 foolish. Both also "slumbered Return to list of postsand slept" waiting for the bridegroom. Both were awakened by the Watchman - "a cry was heard"
1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.2 For by it the elders obtained a good testimony.
Faith is the substance of things hoped for. You could even say, faith is thesubstantiation of things hoped for. Faith supplies... IS the evidence for things that we do not see, but are promised by God. Faith comes by hearing the word of God. Without Faith, it is imposible to please God.
3 By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.
We did not see the world created, framed by the Word of God, but Faith subtantiates and is the evidence for it! Faith! Faith is the evidence, Faith, never reasoning. We cannot reason and prove in our minds because that is not faith. Faith comes by hearing the word of God!
Faith in Jesus Christ CANNOT EVER come by the reasoning of the human mind. The carnal mind is enmity with God
4 By faith Abel offered to God a more excellent sacrifice than Cain, through which he obtained witness that he was righteous, God testifying of his gifts; and through it he being dead still speaks. 5 By faith Enoch was taken away so that he did not see death, “and was not found, because God had taken him”;[a] for before he was taken he had this testimony, that he pleased God. 6 But without faith it is impossible to please Him,for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. 7 By faith Noah, being divinely warned of things not yet seen, moved with godly fear, prepared an ark for the saving of his household, by which he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness which is according to faith.
Faithful Abraham
8 By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to the place which he would receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. 9 By faith he dwelt in the land of promise as in a foreign country, dwelling in tents with Isaac and Jacob, the heirs with him of the same promise;10 for he waited for the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker isGod. 11 By faith Sarah herself also received strength to conceive seed, and she bore a child[b] when she was past the age, because she judged Him faithful who had promised. 12 Therefore from one man, and him as good as dead, were born as manyas the stars of the sky in multitude—innumerable as the sand which is by the seashore.
The Heavenly Hope
13 These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them,[c] embraced themand confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. 14 For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland. 15 And truly if they had called to mind thatcountry from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return.16 But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country.Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them.
The Faith of the Patriarchs
17 By faith Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises offered up his only begotten son,18 of whom it was said, “In Isaac your seed shall be called,”[d]19concluding that God wasable to raise himup, even from the dead, from which he also received him in a figurative sense. 20 By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau concerning things to come. 21 By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of the sons of Joseph, and worshiped, leaningon the top of his staff. 22 By faith Joseph, when he was dying, made mention of the departure of the children of Israel, and gave instructions concerning his bones.
The Faith of Moses
23 By faith Moses, when he was born, was hidden three months by his parents, because they sawhewas a beautiful child; and they were not afraid of the king’s command. 24 By faith Moses, when he became of age, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter,25choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God than to enjoy the passing pleasures of sin, 26esteeming the reproach of Christ greater riches than the treasures in[e] Egypt; for he looked to the reward. 27 By faith he forsookEgypt, not fearing the wrath of the king; for he endured as seeing Him who is invisible. 28 By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, lest he who destroyed the firstborn should touch them. 29 By faith they passed through the Red Sea as by dry land,whereas the Egyptians, attempting to do so, were drowned.
By Faith They Overcame
30 By faith the walls ofJericho fell down after they were encircled for seven days. 31 By faith the harlot Rahab did not perish with those who did not believe, when she had received the spies with peace. 32 And what more shall I say? For the time would fail me to tell of Gideon and Barak and Samson and Jephthah, also of David and Samuel and the prophets:33 who through faith subdued kingdoms, worked righteousness, obtained promises, stopped the mouths of lions, 34quenched the violence of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, out of weakness were made strong, became valiant in battle, turned to flight the armies of the aliens. 35 Women received their dead raised to life again.
Others were tortured, not accepting deliverance, that they might obtain a better resurrection. 36Still others had trial of mockings and scourgings, yes, and of chains and imprisonment.37 They were stoned, they were sawn in two, were tempted,[f] were slain with the sword. They wandered about in sheepskins and goatskins, being destitute, afflicted, tormented— 38 of whom the world was not worthy. They wandered in deserts and mountains, indens and caves of the earth. 39 And all these, having obtained a good testimony through faith, did not receive the promise, 40God having provided something better for us, that they should not be made perfect apart from us.
I want to be a little disciple of Jesus and I'm learning so much from His Word. I like to share what God has taught me on this blog. The theme of this blog is taken of Dietrich Bonhoeffer's "Cost of Discipleship": "When Christ calls a man, He bids him COME and DIE". Those are tough words, but God is at work polishing His disciples with hammer and chisel.
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* DIVINE INSPIRATION OF SCRIPTURE*
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Pleasing Faith
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*By faith Enoch was translated that he should not see death; and was not
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